I'd say the past year has been filled with the biggest changes in my life. Graduating college, journeying on my own, moving up the ladder in the business world, parents divorcing (mom moving, dad remarrying), little brother getting engaged, joining a new church, losing an aunt and a distant cousin in a week, just oodles upon oodles of things-these of which stick out me to the most me right now.
Geez, from the looks of things you'd think I'd be ok with a breather but my heart aches for a refreshment of something. These past couple of months have been trying for me. I've come to know myself better this past year than ever before. Although I can't pinpoint one thing exactly, I see a change in me. Like how sometimes it's exhausting doing for others but sometimes when you know it's what you "do best" then you just push on through, with or without a smile on your face.
I think my biggest urge for change is all of the negativity in my life. I know its inevitable to escape all negativity but I think there are some outlets that can be turned off. Like people. Sometimes people are easy to let go of because you know you're really not losing much. It's more like you're gaining a breathe of fresh air, a sense of newness. I'm constantly learning about people through my job and it's been good and bad. But the one thing I've learned is that you can't hide who you are, fronts are temporary and the truth (good or bad) surfaces.
I'm learning right now that if there is no value in having a relationship with someone, it's time to cut it off immediately. No sense in lingering if you know you have nothing to gain from that person.
So here is to letting go, sense of revitalization and just a big "ahhhhh!"
---By the way, I know there are people who urge me to blog more and I promise I will do better...I appreciate the love!
Word :) Basically what I said in so many words on Friday night - life is too short to be surrounded with people who talk about you as soon as you walk out the door.
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